Thursday, April 12, 2007
FLARE.
i lost it. the flare to blog. i cant find the strength to type the letters. i want to. but my fingers don't want to. but i'll try.
so it's been a long time since i blogged. and yes, the concert is over. ok so it wasnt that interesting. sorry to dissapoint. sigh...
alot of things to do at the poly recently. and sch havnt started yet. it starts on 16th. monday. next monday. cant believe it. the long holidays. coming to a close. woosh. gone. and a new section of my life starts. again.
opening a new chapter is tiring. esp when you lack sleep. and strength. and...just...low energy. sigh. i need time. time to finish all the crap i want to do. need to do. just get it over and done with. i need money. to get all the things i need. its NEED. only after i settle my needs then can i earn money to get my wants. but my wants are nothing ess than a hundred. damn. why do i have such high end interests.
i jsut lost the flare for everything. i want to set things right. everything. make it nice again. i dont' know how, i dont't know why. everything is so screwed up. from this huge old planet, to our puny little insignificant lives.
the world is dying. which means we are dying.
i might not blog for a long while. i not saying i wont. im not saying i might not blog tmr.
let's hope sch is woohoo, fun, exciting(as it says it is) and entertaining.
have fun all. enjoy your youth while it lasts. all of ours are whiling away. dying. slowly. till death touches us. but doesnt take us. then i grabs us. but doesnt take. holds us but. but doesnt take. then death pulls us away...
screwed.
2:53 PM
