The Prize Fight - The Goodnight Kiss.
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Don't say goodnight,
and walk away without that kiss that you owe me.
Don't close your eyes,
and say you don't want me.
I wish that you'd want me now.
You know that I promised I'd always have an ear for you to lend.
But now your syllables are phrases I don't understand.
Calling out in desperation.
Fighting off this suffocation.
Screaming out loud.
Wanting so bad to be heard.
Don't say goodnight,
and walk away without that kiss that you owe me.
Don't close your eyes,
and say you don't want me.
I wish that you'd want me now.
When the days ends and you're cold from standing out alone.
The only voice of recognition is your own.
Crying out in desperation.
Begging to be heard.
But only you can hear your words.
You know that I promised I'd always have an ear for you to lend.
Calling out in desperation.
Fighting off this suffocation.
Screaming out loud.
Wanting so bad to be heard.
Don't say goodnight,
and walk away without that kiss that you owe me.
Don't close your eyes,
and say you don't want me.
I wish that you'd want me now.
Don't say goodnight,
and walk away without that kiss that you owe me.
Don't close your eyes,
and say you don't want me,
I wish that you'd want me now.
screwed.
5:55 PM
the LAST week of sch.
Saturday, October 30, 2004
So...the final week has finally arrived...the long awaited week yet dreaded week...
pupils wait 4 it coz it means the end of the school year and we don't hav to see people we don't wna meet 4 at least 2 months...but dreaded because hols means tt most of us will hav to rot @ home until school comes to our rescue in january.
i have been reading alot lately...this week alone i read 3 books...
The curious incident of the dog in the night time,
Tuesdays with Morrie,
Be more chill.
i'm not gna do a summary tho i'm "ordered" to by teachers next yr @ morning assembly..i'm onli gna sae tt tuesdays wif morrie is a rrli nice bk...meaningful...
i'm waiting to read :
Autobiography of a 1-year-old,
5 people you meet in heaven.
this week was all reading..i spent the whole supposedly teaching time to read those 3 books n catch up on sleep i was deprived of due to the tele...cept during recess la...
exams hav ended n now sch has ended...onli fri had a change of plans...got 2 sch late,unintentionally...was watching sum show on racism the night b4...so return 2 klass,read a bit n sleep as usual while the 4E5n were sumwhere in the sch gettin preached to bout God...hahaz...nbot mani were hapi tt dey were called back to sch juz 2 hear preaching.
recess was early n i was sure tt it was my last chance to see all the guys all @ a table together during recess...hmm.
afta tt there was a bye bye ceremony for mr goh, mr lim, bg eng, sum quak AM n duno hu else...welll the PA bois sorta screwed up the 1st sch song..accident!!!!!i oso duno what happened!!!suddenly EVERYONE looked up...damn tt was scary...sherman and i were squatting n luffin our ass off...ahahhaaz...afta tt part was ova,mr goh was making his speech n we were unknowingly makin alot of noise to teachers came up n screwed us...we accepted their..."comments" but 1 thing i rrli hate is tt freakin tang saying we denied makin noise...SCREW u!!(referin 2 tang ok.)
another thing..i got mi shoes back!!it was in the general office 4 alomst half a yr since it was confiscated by tt bloody black...
i'm dreading nxt yr...with mr loh as principal might be bad enuff but having tt fuckin back as DM?! also an addition to the dreadful year is tt the guys wun be dere..damn its gna be...B-O-R-I-N-G.
let's see how it goes.
Happy Holidays and Good Luck For the O's next week!!
screwed.
1:59 AM
Staind - Epiphany
Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
So I speak to you in riddles
'Cause my words get in my way.
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
'Cause I can't take anymore of this,
I want to come apart,
or dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for attention,
Yet I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said.
screwed.
1:57 AM
Snow patrol - How to Be Dead.
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Snow Patrol - How To Be Dead.
Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened
And you never will if
You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall
Where you've had me for hours
Till I'm sure what I want
But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no way
Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime
So just say yes or no
Why can't you shoulder the blame
Coz both my shoulders are heavy
From the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said...
Oh, my God
Please take it easy it can't all be my fault
I haven't made half the mistakes
That you've listed so far
Oh baby let me explain something
It's all down to drugs
At least I remember taking them and not a lot else
It seems I've stepped over lines
You've drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out
Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride.
screwed.
2:56 AM
SR-71 - Alive.
All she's asking is for a little more time,
To walk away from his anger and leave the bruises far behind
She won't talk about it...she's made up her mind
But as the front door shuts behind her she whispers "give me a sign."
Feels the power of the engine as she climbs to 65
Every piston sounds like freedom, every white line says goodbye
She'll find strength in her anger and the truth in his lies
When the last scar finally fades she'll have a new life
Say goodbye to Mr. Right
Lock the door, turn out the light
Pack your bags, leave this trap
Run away, don't look back
See another day with each new sun
Your life has just begun
You see another day with each new sun
Your life has just begun
She can still feel the touch of his hand
Not just the violence but the warmth of her man
Say goodbye to Mr. Right
Lock the door, turn out the light
Pack your bags, leave this trap
Run away, don't look back
See another day with each new sun
Your life has just begun
The night she never felt so alive (x3)(
even though it feels so cold outside)
It's the first time I've ever seen her smile.
screwed.
2:41 AM
mondae to fridae was either pool or sleepin/slacking in sch.
had to go sch on mon,thur n fri coz tues n wed were markin daes...
mondae was damn boring...mrs eng TRIED teachin but to no avail i believe..i duno bout the rest of the klass but...i was asleep..hahaz...hu studies afta exams! not me at least.
tues...i was out i tink...guess i dun remember.
wed i remember i was out wif ben, nic, russel, celest n elane..went 2 K pool...had dinner afta tt n slack arnd town doin nothin..ate ice cream n went back home...
thurs had sch so...yea...afta sch went to.....sakae!yea...ate alot n alot...den hung arnd borders n wheelock in general..met ms chng dere..she offered 2 pay 4 the books i was lookin @...hahaz...so nice...so in d end she said i could borrow the book she had...yea...so she left n we left...
fri sch had post exam activities dae...sch was kinda boring tt dae...was in hte auditorium the whole dae..dey showed X2 n shrek...borin..was slpin @ the back. =x carried sum things 4 trace in é mornin...yea...afta sch...edwin n I went 4 cafe artel ,pool n a show..i knoe its gay but...we cldnt get anibodi!!yea...we watched the ladykillers...which was spose 2 be titled the killerlady...coz eveybodi died cept the lady...funi show.
n 2DAE!!!!freakin STUPID day!!!went 2 sch @ 7 4 sum stupid chinese programme 4 teachers in our zone...n i was the onli student in the auditorium bsides 2 gay cat-hi fags wif hi-tech shit. yea..i was doin ava btw...yea...n guess wad...adrian n I fell aslp when we were spose 2 be "on guard"...pai seh-ness...what's worse, we were right in front where the suprendendant(how u spell it?) can see us...when i was doin sum powerpoint clickin, i notice ALOT of other teachers were aslp 2!!but the sup cldnt see...what unfairness...damnit...
ate alot 2dae too...lok n adrian made mi eat...but...what's 2 lose!its gd food...=D so it all ended @ 4PM!!went 2 meet rach @ secret recipe n she came mi place den we headed 4 hougang.afta mi dinner went ova 2 her place n watched "sleepover"...gd n funi show/chick flic...so i'm here now wif every1 in mi famili aslp.
my mind is in a blur when i see you. i din want things 2 happen dis wae but as weeks passed, u seem buried in work so i didnt wna distract u. by doin tt, sumhow we...stop contactin each other..mayb its the weird feeling i'm havin when i start to think...so mani weird relationships here and there..so confusing..so hurting. so i realli do not knoe what to say wheneva i see you..
currently readin - The curious incident of the dog in the night time. ( i do read.)
screwed.
1:44 AM
if you're gone.
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Matchbox 20 - If You're Gone
I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak - but I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
Now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure
I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing
If you're gone - maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home, come home
There's a little bit of something me
In everything in you
I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the moon just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind
I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling
If you're gone - maybe it's time to COME home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home, come home
There's a little bit of something me
In everything in…………………… you
I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
and I think I'm scared - do I talk too much
I know it’s wrong it's a problem I'm dealing
If you're gone - maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone – Hell, baby you need to come home
There's a little bit of something me
In everything in you, everything in ….in you.
screwed.
7:28 PM
well. dis "morning"i woke up @ 2. didnt wna wake up so late actualli but...cldnt help it...slept @ 4...
now i'm juz lookin for tabs 4 songs i cant even imagine exists.
tomorrow i hav 2 go 2 schooool....n 4E 5N 's not gna be there...wad a freakin borin dae its gna be...unless the teachers hav a great imagination 2 make the day interestin...which is hardly believable...
afta tml, we wun hav 2 go sch 4 another 2days. good or bad, u be the judge.
oh i juz remembered. i was tokin 2 edwin onlyn last nyt.
<~[sUbWaVe]~: y u so late den sign in?
D0 S; Di: i drunk
<~[sUbWaVe]~: damn
<~[sUbWaVe]~: doubt u're drunk coz u can sign in...ryt
D0 S; Di: eeheeee
D0 S; Di: hahaha
D0 S; Di: ur face look funny(refering to my disp pic)
D0 S; Di: ahaaahaaehieiee
<~[sUbWaVe]~: okae u're drunk
D0 S; Di: im juz dizzzyyyeee
<~[sUbWaVe]~: u beta turn in early n get a good rest man
D0 S; Di: haha
D0 S; Di: is fun
D0 S; Di: gaaahaa
<~[sUbWaVe]~: not until u throw up!!
D0 S; Di: no la i wunnnn throw udpdp
D0 S; Di: i strong
<~[sUbWaVe]~: rite
<~[sUbWaVe]~: juz dun go rape ur maid
<~[sUbWaVe]~: hahhaz[03:05:10] D0 S; Di: fuxk u
D0 S; Di: i drank cokc sucker
<~[sUbWaVe]~: yea ryt
<~[sUbWaVe]~: u rrli seaem drunk
D0 S; Di: lol im nt la
D0 S; Di: juz shagghed
D0 S; Di: i bring all next time
D0 S; Di: cock suckerrr
D0 S; Di: HAHAHA
D0 S; Di: blowjob
<~[sUbWaVe]~: bring all of wad
D0 S; Di: u all
D0 S; Di: drink
D0 S; Di: lamborghinisss
D0 S; Di: funny thinggg
D0 S; Di: hahahahahahahahahaa
D0 S; Di: they burn ur drinkoss
D0 S; Di: and then u drink
D0 S; Di: then they ring the belkll
D0 S; Di: WOOOOO
D0 S; Di: hjahahaha
D0 S; Di: is fjnajuny
D0 S; Di: funnie*D0 S; Di: dunny
D0 S; Di: funny*
<~[sUbWaVe]~: hahaz
<~[sUbWaVe]~: u goin mad
D0 S; Di: i drank lambigienie
<~[sUbWaVe]~: a wine
D0 S; Di: cocktsilal
D0 S; Di: cockataleil
D0 S; Di: tocka
D0 S; Di: cocktail
D0 S; Di: hahah
D0 S; Di: they set ur druneks oin fire
D0 S; Di: they sert ur dinrk in fire
D0 S; Di: i csnt type
D0 S; Di: they set ur drink on wire
D0 S; Di: they set ur drink on fire
D0 S; Di: the u n rcick
D0 S; Di: then u drink
<~[sUbWaVe]~: u mke urself
D0 S; Di: gahahssahsa
D0 S; Di: no
D0 S; Di: they make efer muee
D0 S; Di: they lite up
D0 S; Di: i suckkkk
D0 S; Di: suuutttt
D0 S; Di: ihhihihihi
<~[sUbWaVe]~: where u drink?
D0 S; Di: so mansys pple online
D0 S; Di: ihiihii
D0 S; Di: sietenc
D0 S; Di: suntec
D0 S; Di: ihhihhi
D0 S; Di: i cam eheome
D0 S; Di: wif a taci
D0 S; Di: the driver alsback
D0 S; Di: black
D0 S; Di: HAA
<~[sUbWaVe]~: u drink wif hu?
D0 S; Di: kiiiiii fall
D0 S; Di: pain'
D0 S; Di: hiigiii
D0 S; Di: cosudins'
D0 S; Di: cousin
<~[sUbWaVe]~: ohhh
D0 S; Di: ha suayaaaa
hahaz...hope he ain't pissed tt i put dis here...gna hav dinner in awhile...
the 4E 5N s are gna hav their Os soon...and leaving sch soon...4 a person who hav majority of his frens frm express, nxt yr's gna be...a new experience?yea...we'll see..............=>
screwed.
5:35 PM
finalli i can blog frm d "comfort" of mi home again...not rrli mi home...juz comfort of mi com...hahaz...didnt do anitin on mon n tues cept 4 watchin tv...caught sesames street d whole week!!!elmo is so cute...(i knoe i sound rrli gay sayin dis but...=D) hahaz...yea...
wed i went out wif mi parents...spose 2 shop...wasnt 22 intersted till we came 2 lido...wasnt rrli dressed 4 d place but wad d heck...dere was dis okinawa fair dere n dey had pearl jewellry n mi dad got mi mum a pearl bracelet...considerin tt is 200+ n tt mi mum wanted a neckalce set which costs 100,000+...n its also d 1st tym in 21YEARS mi dad has gotten mi mum anitin 2 do wif jewellry. yea..so u hav d midset of mi dad....y onli now mi dad got ani jewellry 4 mi mum?all tkx 2 d saleswoman...hahaz...yea den we headed 2 levi's..........hahahhaaz...got mi 501 dere..tink i altered alil 2 small but....=> i'm fine wif it...had 2 leave it dere 4 alterin so tt brings us 2 thurs!
thurs went 2 meet celst n elaine 2 get elane n my hair cut...i tink it's nice...rach doesnt...nvm...den went 2 get mi jeans n meet d hobbits' fren, alicia. she wanted 2 catch oujia board...so we did...i guess i hav 2 blame her 4 all d bad nights i'm havin...tt dae was pool day...b4 d show,pool..afta show,poool...afta pool?went another location 2...play pool!!!yea...den home...tt nite i woke up halfwae tinkin i had a runnin nose so i tot nothin of it...woke up in d mornin wif mi pillow bloody..shit tt sux...tt was fri aready...
fri went 2 sentosa wif hobbits,edwin,sean n lennon...met pple i knew dere...we had fun burryin edwin n givin him fake boobs n dick...shemale!!!hahaz...i rolled down d shore into n sea till mi back now is sore... n we plaed volleyball when it was...7.30 n almost pitch dark...hahaz...tt was fun...=D left setosa @ 9?yea n wqent 2 yoshi 2 hav dinner...reached home arnd 11...had 2 change bedsheet n stuff so..yea slept @ 3...
nxt dae,which is 2dae..went 2 meet rach...congrats 2 JF n FOO!!!u guys r SO lucky 2 hav each other n hapi 2yrs!=>
yea..back 2 rach,we went 2 ps,wantin 2 catch white chickys but d que was freakin long so went 2 ceni instead...trace called n asked 2 watch 2...so bought it 4 her n gav her her tics..yea...tts probably d last tym tt i saw her 2dae...=x d show was freakin great!!so shit funny...wif a great audience 2...hahaz...yea...went 4 dinner @ taka delifrance...den walk walk arnd taka n went 2 her place...got a few songs which sadly took about...2 hrs?!hahaz...left n here i am.
probalby wonderin y celest n cheryl called mi auntie nai in mi tag?well coz when dey were studyin @ my place,i was d maid named untie nai(ian<->nai) geddit??yea..dey figure its v thai n maid-ish...hahaz...n edwin was crasi tutor...being crazi n all...n hobbits as...demselves!!hahaz...
hmmx...wonder how next week's gna turn out...we'll see bout tt...
till den..=> take care one n all.
screwed.
2:16 AM
exams!!!
Friday, October 08, 2004
exams r ova n i juz blogged bout it n it got screwed sumwhere so...a v brief 1 is coming...
mi exams fin on mondae...wish mi luck...
the whole week the hobbits hav bee @ mi palce study wif edwin as thier tutor...with the occasonal pscence of wang aka nicky as cheryl's tutor...usualli they stayed late...i cooked dinner 4 dem twice...n twice it was good...speg once n egg omelette twice...its good n i hav proof...
tts bout it...not as fun but the hobbits were fun...no,juz crazi...yea..mi 1st post was long so dun blame mi 4 being lazee,blame blogga.
OUT.
screwed.
11:47 PM
exams r almost ova so...gd 4 mi...onli got 1 more paper left on mon...the girls hav ended their Ns...sadly 4 us,guys...
the whole week the hobbits hav been vvisitin mi place,treatin it as a tuition centre...
" the cast"
the crazi tutor - edwin. reason: gay n goes around wif guitar in hand,strummin n singin outta tune.
" untie NAI" - ian. reason : tthe person doing the chores. n the hobbits tink "nai" sounds v thai n maid-like.
the hobbits -pon star - elane. reason: short n skips sch alot.
-blur hobbit - celest. reason: short n blur.
-tikus/hobbit - cheryl. reason : short,small,short n ...smal...(hahahaha)
yea..so edwin was their tutor n wif the occasional prescence of the wang aka nicky...he was cheryl's tutor...
so..i had 2 cook,wash,sweep,bathe,sleep n study all @ once...i managed!!lucky its all ova now...=> so...ya...the papers were alrite cept 4 2dae's maths...so mani careless mistakes!!!tt sux!!!ya....so...pray i'll pass...
tt's my week.not as fun...borin!!but the hobbits were fun la...gd company...no,not gd..crazi company...ya...
OUT.
screwed.
11:25 PM
Saturday, October 02, 2004
i'll start dis post on sat,last week...met rach n we went walkin arnd town...met yc,got mi expensive wallet which i'm sure she wans mi 2 feel guilty bout...n i m!damnit...denwent to watch terminal...gd show...yea..den we cont 2 walk arnd town...bla bla bla..sleptova @ her place..it wasnt planned...had 2 rush back the nxt dae coz was goin out wif pri sch frens...which brings us 2 sundae...met dem @ orchard den went walkin arnd...the motive was to celebrate kenji n mi bdae...ate lunch @ thai express n had a choc filled cake..it was damn gd...den we went all the wae 2 bugis 2 catch new police story..was a lil late 4 the show but still caought the good parts i tink...den we wnt 2 tke neo prints...dey were gd...went 2 get dinner den headedhme...mondae was mi bdae...so...suppose 2 b a gd dae ryt?wrong...early in the mornin it screwed upaready..was late...tkx 2 foo,i got up @ 8.30..tkx!den got 2 sch...alot of hapi bdaes...tkx...hmmx...pple tried 2 con mi wif the watch ting but i rrli wasnt sad bout the watch thing!!trustmi!okae nvm...i rrli lyk the watch..tkx alot...afta sch,treat ed,foo,ham,lenn n the 2 hobbits2 swensons...it wasnt planned aniwae...got $$ frm mi mama...so nice...yea...i'm lazee 2 type out wad happened dere so...yea...the rest of the week mostly...wasnt v gd nor bad...study study study...shit...Ns nxt week...screw it...i'm probably gna fail so bad i cant even retain.i dread comin onlyn coz sumtin is bound 2 put mi down.
screwed.
1:51 AM
