I'm not in the mood.truth be told, i'd rather not blog. lazy or moody, take your pick.
update: my results suck. and i just realise by how much.
i have been looking at my choices tonight and seeing the cut-off point of those im short-listed to do, the difference is.....larger than large. i wonder how they choose those courses we're short-listed to.
so far i've only applied for JPSAE. i wish i could stop there. but there's still JAE to decide. all 12 choices. oh Lord, grant me wisdom please.
enough on that. i'll like to "reply" to yiye's (png) post on family. -
i know not many people know much about me and my relationship w my family.
this is the jist of the Lim family - we all (mum, elder bro, me and small bro) HATE our father/husband. we have diagnosed him with a mental illness and refuse to believe he's better.
seriously, would you like a dad who finds fault with you for putting things on the floor?everytime he comes home?
screams at your mum for not helping in the house when he himself is a SOAB that doesnt earn money?
oh how i wish to scream profanities. really. i've only begun to describe the monster my family lives with.
only recently has he started work as a real estate agent and he expects my mum to help him when she's working almost full shifts everyday and she puts up with all his shit.
yes CNY is nearing. he scareams at her for not clearing the house. is he even doing anything?!no, he just screams and screams and screams.
just yest night, he told elder bro to talk to me about my choice in poly. fine.
he wakes fun from her sleep cos he wants her to be involved. fine.
bro, mum and me talks in the room with him outside. talk ends.
"i dont need to be involved is it?!i am the head of this house ok!bla bla bla bla" its all rubbish anyway.
and he goes on to say fine, all ian's studies is now all my mum's business, he's not gna care anymore.
then he went out. alas, its temporal.
my mum and i and both bros are in the room and i ask y the the bloody world dont you divorce him.
mum: u see he's so unstable, he anything oso can do.
i was thinking, what can he do that we all can't handle. we've thru shit from him. kicking his ass outta this place will make this place almost heaven.
note: ive not spoken to him since that time (right after my Os) when he told me to take charge and write down what us 3 bros want. I wrote - dad leaves, we clear up house, divide chores. AND HE TOLD US TO SIGN IT. that bloody mofo hasnt left yet.
yess, this is just an insight of my family. a beautiful family ruined by a person i call dad.
screw you 'dad'. we hate you. get out. stop ruining our life. our future doesnt include you. AT ALL.
don't try to understand. just know.alas, the windy days are gone, heat beating on our backs.screwed.
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